Like I said -- the things you can't control are gonna change wherever you go, but they will still happen, and they'll be just as numerous.
I wish I could assure you that if you had a normal life, or one at least a little more normal, there'd be experiences that might come along and teach you things. You might not become someone you victimized, but you'd learn what it feels like to be a victim. You might not become a woman, but you'd get some idea through something what it is like to feel maternal. The same with being a child or a teenager -- you're going to feel ignorant, or blissfully trusting, or silly sometimes.
And horrible things might happen sometimes, but you're getting a sense of empathy you never could have gotten back home, whether you want to have it or not. It's different for something to be like something else as opposed to actually being it. And rather than use that, and give some power back to yourself, you'd rather stand back and cry about how unfair it is.
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Date: 2009-02-07 04:43 pm (UTC)I wish I could assure you that if you had a normal life, or one at least a little more normal, there'd be experiences that might come along and teach you things. You might not become someone you victimized, but you'd learn what it feels like to be a victim. You might not become a woman, but you'd get some idea through something what it is like to feel maternal. The same with being a child or a teenager -- you're going to feel ignorant, or blissfully trusting, or silly sometimes.
And horrible things might happen sometimes, but you're getting a sense of empathy you never could have gotten back home, whether you want to have it or not. It's different for something to be like something else as opposed to actually being it. And rather than use that, and give some power back to yourself, you'd rather stand back and cry about how unfair it is.
It's life. It's unfair.