91 - Jailhouse Blues [Voice]
Jun. 30th, 2009 09:38 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
major_westCongratulations. You won. Here's to an eternity of the status quo.
[After a pause]
Billy... Please tell me you're alright.
[AND IN THE BACKGROUND YOU CAN HEAR RAYNE SHOUTING THE FOLLOWING]
JESUSFUCKINGCHRISTMONKEYBALLS! SOMEONE BETTER BE LETTING ME OUT OF HERE OR-
[OOC: Major McCrazyface is in Level 0 now with a bandaged, possibly broken hand, a STILL stitched up leg, and a frown :c I'm pretty sure Inmates can't initiate private filters, hence his having to ask about Billy in public. ANYWAY. Visit him if you'd like; just spam it in this post]
[After a pause]
Billy... Please tell me you're alright.
[AND IN THE BACKGROUND YOU CAN HEAR RAYNE SHOUTING THE FOLLOWING]
JESUSFUCKINGCHRISTMONKEYBALLS! SOMEONE BETTER BE LETTING ME OUT OF HERE OR-
[OOC: Major McCrazyface is in Level 0 now with a bandaged, possibly broken hand, a STILL stitched up leg, and a frown :c I'm pretty sure Inmates can't initiate private filters, hence his having to ask about Billy in public. ANYWAY. Visit him if you'd like; just spam it in this post]
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Date: 2009-06-30 02:54 pm (UTC)She approached the cell carefully, not so much because she feared him, but because he had suffered enough trauma, and she didn't want to make him feel any worse if she could help it.]
West...
[She curled one hand around a bar, and extended the other through toward him.]
Are you alright?
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Date: 2009-06-30 02:57 pm (UTC)Yes, I'm fine. I hope you weren't too badly hurt.
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Date: 2009-06-30 03:13 pm (UTC)Just a bit of rope burn. I'll be alright.
[She watches him in silence for several seconds before she speaks again]
Things aren't hopeless.
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Date: 2009-06-30 03:25 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2009-06-30 03:36 pm (UTC)I know you're not. Beyond that first day, when I first saw you, I never thought you were.
I still believe in you. I still believe that what you wanted was right, IS right, even if they way you went about it was wrong.
I'm still honored to call you my friend.
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Date: 2009-06-30 03:43 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2009-06-30 03:53 pm (UTC)Just me, I guess. I've found I have a lot more to lose if I'm not.
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Date: 2009-06-30 04:09 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2009-06-30 04:26 pm (UTC)I hope you can trust me, at least.
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Date: 2009-06-30 04:28 pm (UTC)Rose, if you trust me, I'll only disappoint you.
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Date: 2009-06-30 04:41 pm (UTC)[She sighs]
West... you know I love the Doctor. I love him... more than anything in the world. In the universe, in any universe. I'd trust him with everything, with my life, and have, many times.
But even he's let me down at times. Kept things from me, been unable to save me from being stranded in an alternate universe... more.
Because no matter how much he'd like everyone to believe otherwise, he's not perfect. Neither are you. Neither am I. We fail, we make mistakes, we let our friends down, we let ourselves down. The only way we can move on is to forgive.
I forgive you. And I trust you.
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Date: 2009-06-30 04:49 pm (UTC)Right. Thank you.
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Date: 2009-06-30 04:51 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2009-06-30 05:07 pm (UTC)Rose, I am a terrible person.
[It feels weird to admit it]
I've done more than... keep secrets from or let down people who've trusted me in the past. And I have very few regrets.
[He doesn't quite sound like he believes that last bit. He looks down, swallows, and continues]
I hardly trust myself, and I don't want to put you in harm's way, but I can't promise that... I wouldn't do something even worse than all this one day.
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Date: 2009-06-30 05:21 pm (UTC)There's no such thing. You were right about that. There's no such thing as a good person or a terrible person... there's only our choices, and at any time we can choose differently.
[She slides her hand gently over his]
I know you've done terrible things. You must have done, to be here. But admitting to it... recognizing that possibility... you can choose to do better. To be better.
[She smiles a little]
You remind me a bit of Jack, actually.
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Date: 2009-06-30 05:48 pm (UTC)But sometimes, what's terrible is what's necessary.
[Then he looks up, slightly confused]
I do?
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Date: 2009-06-30 06:20 pm (UTC)I know. The Doctor... he destroyed his own people in order to prevent the enslavement of the universe. I destroyed an entire species to save my own. The right thing... it isn't always easy. It isn't always pretty. And we get it wrong sometimes. Ask me about how I almost destroyed the universe sometime...
But we keep trying, we answer for our mistakes, and hopefully learn from them.
[She smiled at his reaction to Jack]
Do you know how I first met Jack?
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Date: 2009-06-30 06:29 pm (UTC)[Well, perhaps ordering the systematic rape of women and girls wasn't so bad-- no, wait, it still was]
[West shakes his head at her question]
No, I don't.
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Date: 2009-06-30 06:49 pm (UTC)Yep. It's a long story I'll tell some other time, but the gist is I disobeyed the Doctor on something very important and caused the very fabric of reality to start to unravel.
[She squeezed his hand a tiny bit]
When I met Jack, he was a con artist, pretty much only interested in making a quid. He tried to con the Doctor and I, but it went wrong. Horribly wrong.
He helped us, though. In the end, he helped us to set things right. And wound up becoming one of my best friends.