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major_westI've been here for nearly two years now, and while others may have seen results, I have not. It's become clear to me that no matter what course I'd have taken, the end result would have been the same: they live. My men and I die. Perhaps, if I had been a better man-- by whatever metric you wardens measure it by-- I'd have had no second chance at all. My death would have brought peace, a darkness, whatever it is those who do not end up on the Barge receive... and nothing more.
In light of that, I must admit that I've even less reason to repent. I'm quite attached to consciousness, to simply being and feeling alive, even if it's in death here.
Survival is all that matters.
In light of that, I must admit that I've even less reason to repent. I'm quite attached to consciousness, to simply being and feeling alive, even if it's in death here.
Survival is all that matters.
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Date: 2010-02-01 01:13 am (UTC)Private
Date: 2010-02-01 01:22 am (UTC)Intention is not the same as action. Just because he intended to kill you does not mean that he would have followed through. I sent you there. I knew he would follow.
Private
Date: 2010-02-01 01:41 am (UTC)But in this instance, I wasn't a soldier; I was a volunteer. I didn't have to follow your orders, and I certainly wasn't unaware of the risks I undertook when I agreed to help Judas. I knew about Sexby, and I knew that as long as he had his item, he could find us. It simply didn't matter to me, so long as I could help a defenceless man escape tyranny.
I had no obligation to Judas except as a fellow Inmate. I would have done anything for my fellows, as they were... the closest thing I had to my men.
My priorities led to my death. If you hadn't asked me to help Judas, I'd have found another way to die.
Private- welcome to the Marquis' headache...
Date: 2010-02-01 01:47 am (UTC)And your death, inevitable or not, should not have been on my hands.
Private
Date: 2010-02-01 01:49 am (UTC)My death was on Sexby's hands.
Private
Date: 2010-02-01 01:53 am (UTC)I do not know why this is even a discussion. I am starting to feel this entire exercise is futile.
Private
Date: 2010-02-01 02:04 am (UTC)Six months ago, when I started the riot, one of my friends was attacked and tortured by the Master because she was in the wrong place, at the wrong time, and he took it as a window of opportunity. Several people died. My own Warden was shot. If I blamed myself for everything that happened while others were abusing the situation, I'd never get any sleep.
Private
Date: 2010-02-01 02:12 am (UTC)If they are willing to do what is asked, then the blame rests solely on their shoulders, not the one who issued the order...or request?
Private
Date: 2010-02-01 02:25 am (UTC)When somebody is dependent upon you, or ignorant, or... your subordinate, it's different. I will always feel responsibility for the deaths of my men, but they were my soldiers. I wasn't yours. The actions of a knowing volunteer and an insane zealot are not on your hands.
Private
Date: 2010-02-01 02:37 am (UTC)Private - I DO NOT TRUST THAT SMILE
Date: 2010-02-01 02:38 am (UTC)Private - You really...really shouldn't. West just justified EVERYTHING Iago does...
Date: 2010-02-01 02:44 am (UTC)Do you really believe that, if you leave this Barge, the only option is to die?
Private - West is a horrible jerk with MESSED UP MORALS, so the Marquis picked the wrong dude :c
Date: 2010-02-01 02:48 am (UTC)Private - Iago's not complaining about it now XD
Date: 2010-02-01 02:52 am (UTC)Especially as I have nowhere to go, either.
Private
Date: 2010-02-01 04:33 pm (UTC)Private
Date: 2010-02-01 10:55 pm (UTC)