major_west: (crazy in the rain)
[personal profile] major_west
I've been here for nearly two years now, and while others may have seen results, I have not. It's become clear to me that no matter what course I'd have taken, the end result would have been the same: they live. My men and I die. Perhaps, if I had been a better man-- by whatever metric you wardens measure it by-- I'd have had no second chance at all. My death would have brought peace, a darkness, whatever it is those who do not end up on the Barge receive... and nothing more.

In light of that, I must admit that I've even less reason to repent. I'm quite attached to consciousness, to simply being and feeling alive, even if it's in death here.

Survival is all that matters.

Private- Have someone else's issues, too!

Date: 2010-01-31 10:31 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] inhumandog.livejournal.com
The Marquis expressed a wish for us to speak.

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Date: 2010-01-31 10:32 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] major-west.livejournal.com
Yes, he told me that as well. I won't do it if he's forcing you, however.

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Date: 2010-01-31 10:34 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] inhumandog.livejournal.com
He forces me in his play and forces me to work. But he does not force me to speak yet.

No, this was my choice.

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Date: 2010-01-31 10:40 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] major-west.livejournal.com
I see. Then I'm available to speak.

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sooooorry west, you get mr martyr.

Date: 2010-01-31 10:51 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] kingfor-aday.livejournal.com
But surely it would have been better dying knowing you had done the right thing, knowing you had taken, in the inevitability of death, the most moral action you could have. It may have been futile, but doing the immoral act would have been equally as futile.

I don't quite see the attraction in wanting to survive, having such actions on your conscience.

:c

Date: 2010-02-01 01:15 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] major-west.livejournal.com
There was no "right thing" in that situation. Had I done what would have likely averted my status as an Inmate, I'd have betrayed the very people who were relying upon me.

It's better than being dead.

Date: 2010-02-01 01:19 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] kingfor-aday.livejournal.com
Moral issues aren't always clear cut. All decisions come at a cost, sure enough, but who that cost comes to and how large it is surely must be taken into account. Even if it ends in the same result, acting in the best of your moral intention is better than knowing something is wrong and carrying on regardless. It always is.

Is it? Is it really?

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but but but West's an atheist :C

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BILLY > NOT RAPING GIRLS, SORRY

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...nice equation there,

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Date: 2010-01-31 10:55 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] some-kinda-hero.livejournal.com
But you have the chance of both living and repenting by graduating into a Warden. You could help someone else.

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Date: 2010-02-01 01:16 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] major-west.livejournal.com
I will never choose to become a warden. This system is broken, and I refuse to take part in it.

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Date: 2010-02-01 06:56 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] some-kinda-hero.livejournal.com
Can't say I disagree completely.

So...what are you going to do?

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She's a lot less okay with this than she sounds.

Date: 2010-01-31 11:24 pm (UTC)
gimmethemap: (all right fine)
From: [personal profile] gimmethemap
You assume that the alternative wouldn't have been another life.

Date: 2010-02-01 01:17 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] major-west.livejournal.com
Oh, why don't we ask Sergeant Farrell, then?

Date: 2010-02-01 01:21 am (UTC)
gimmethemap: (arms folded)
From: [personal profile] gimmethemap
You know, you keep saying things like that, and he'll probably pop up here one day, and then you're going to feel like an ass.

I WISH.

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Fine. Deflate her anger balloon. You spoilsport.

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Date: 2010-02-01 01:23 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] impure-tale.livejournal.com
I seem to recall writing something almost similar when I first -- "awakened" after that flood. Almost.

And believe me, in the past I could not have written better than you just have. But I also think you're wrong.

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Date: 2010-02-01 03:54 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] thatlibbychick.livejournal.com
Don't say that. You know that if you graduate, you can always come back here as a Warden and continue to exist. You don't need to simply give up.

Date: 2010-02-01 04:40 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] major-west.livejournal.com
I have no intention of becoming a jailer.

Date: 2010-02-01 06:30 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] thatlibbychick.livejournal.com
You know not all of us act like that, and you wouldn't be forced to if you joined us. If you think we're doing it wrong, you'd be able to avoid making the same mistakes, right?

Please, don't throw the baby out with the bathwater. If you hate this system, you can always try to make changes once you have the chance. Will it really be better to exist under someone's thumb for the rest of eternity?

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Date: 2010-02-01 05:10 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] alzarian-youth.livejournal.com
Maybe you'd have just been a warden instead? I died, and I have to agree that I'm quite attached to remaining alive...or conscious, or however you want to word it, but didn't have to end up as an inmate.

Date: 2010-02-01 04:40 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] major-west.livejournal.com
That's a small possibility. Nobody else worth anything from my world has.

Date: 2010-02-01 08:41 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] alzarian-youth.livejournal.com
Maybe they were given the choice to be wardens and didn't want to?

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Date: 2010-02-01 08:21 am (UTC)
subtlescience: (Calculating)
From: [personal profile] subtlescience
What sort of life is it, if it is only survival?

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Date: 2010-02-01 04:41 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] major-west.livejournal.com
A life. Quite preferable to no life.

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